Thursday, September 23, 2010
Every end has a beginning- how do you start?
As I am sitting here with plaster underneath my fingernails, slowly making it's way to the crevices of my laptop keyboard, I know exactly how I got to this starting point.
Following a nerve-racking pecha kucha presentation I called my friend to to complain about how terrible I am at public speaking. After hanging up, my feet made their way to 114, and a long sigh of relief came out of my mouth when I sat down in my studio chair. This is where I start. I start when I am in the worst place and it seems that nothing can better my mood unless my hands are moving and a good song is playing. From that point on it's easy and I remember why I am an art major, and more importantly why I make.
To me, art has always been some what of a release. It has always been something that calls to me if I have been neglectful of it for a while. It reaches a threshold until finally it boils over and I need it. Almost like emotion.
There are those people who bottle stuff up until-they-absolutely-cannot-stand-it. One thing happens and their whole body is flooded with emotion that is pleading to be noticed and listened to. I suppose thats how art is for me, a metaphor for emotion, a way to release with out using my words. I start right here.
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have you noticed that on your way to 114 your shoulders are right up to your ears and crunched... and then when you leave your shoulders are so loose your hands seem like they could drag on the ground?
ReplyDeleteaw jesse that comment made me melt. because its true.
ReplyDelete(abs- you know i like this idea of the release of an emotion. it fits you particularly well. and pssh- who knew- you did.)
i wonder if you tried to make "art" itself into a tangible object what it would look like so that it could sit on your desk and you could have a relationship with it establish it talk to it and neglect it for a while and then flood it with all of this best kind of loving adoration and use when you needed it back in your life i wonder what that would look like
sometimes starting is starting. What is that science principle - every action creates an equal and opposite reaction? Maybe in order to get started in making - action needs to begin...
ReplyDeletemaking needs making. without that energy it withers.
I like Tina's idea - like a relationship - one that deserves great attention at times but hangs on during the droughts waiting to be brought back to a big, living, breathing, energetic, thing.